Monday

6pm start due to getting out of the apt. for the first time in a while. Updates later.
Cashed in 4 out of 31 MTTs with two final tables, 8th in the $55 12.5k on Stars and 1st in the 20r 7.5k on AP. It was a great day overall and I am glad I was able to get out of the apt. to restock before and more snow. I was also very happy with my play today and believe I was making good decisions. I had a god talk with a couple live poker players today and some of our topics were quite engaging. Also the Fox chat on PxF was awesome tonight and had me feeling good. Time to relax, more grinding tomorrow.

Sunday

1pm start ready for a day of poker and will probably listen to the Super Bowl in the background. Today I will be playing most of my normal schedule with the FTOPS 1 and a few majors added in. 

Cashed in 5 out of 46 MTTs with a FT in the $26 18k on FTP. Overall it was a decent day full of deep runs and I am happy with my play but definitely noticed a few things I would like to work on.

With all the new grinders in the chat group I am trying to get a weekly HH review session started, I think some structure and a weekly time will help us all study a little more. When I introduced the idea in chat it was received well, but actually showing up and participating is another beast, hopefully it will work out.

Well, I am all done for the night and ready to relax but lots of grinding coming this month, GL ME.

Saturday

3:30pm start after sleeping in a little. I was up a little later than normal due to trying out Netflix downloads off of my PS3. It was cool and convenient, I watched the third movie in the "Girl with the Dragon Tattoo" series and it was as good as the other two. Unluckily it did not have the option to add english language like some DVDs do, so I had to read it, but still enjoyed it. I also watched "Law Abiding Citizen" for the second time and enjoyed it as well.
Today is the first day of the Feb. team event on P5s and I will be trying to help my team get off to a good start. I have still been adjusting my schedule often in an effort to find the best MTTs for me right now. I think for the next couple weeks I am going to try to stay in the parameters of the contest. Break is almost over so back to the grind, updates later, GL ME.
Cashed in 7 out of 29 MTTs with some deep runs but no FTs and did not get winner on the day. I was happy with the schedule of MTTs I played today and also happy with my play overall. Tomorrow is the first day of FTOPS and the second day of the team comp so I will deff be playing, GL ME.

Friday

Started at 3pm today and cashed in 5 out of 41 MTTs with several deep runs but ultimately came up short and a little loser. We had the draft for the Feb. Team Comp on P5s and I believe that I picked a good team. These contests are great for motivation and networking through out the poker community. I had an early pick and was able to get apology7 a player I have been interested to chat with so I hope he is up for it. 

We got more snow today and they are expecting more over the next few days so I will deff be grinding. I see a lot of my FB friends posting about being stir-crazy but I would be grinding anyway and it doesn't bother me. I do like the option to be able to go to the store and for food though. 

I just listened to the new P5s podcast and Mike Matusow is such a tool. I mean sure he plays okay,  has had success, is deff a well known player, but his views on online players was ridiculous to say the least. Half the questions 7delux asked him were mildly answered before he went off on some tangent that did not make sense. I also thought it was extremely laughable how he bashed deep-stacks, but is Pro for Deep-stacks live, and how he said the public could be being robbed right now online and they would not know, but he works for FTP, so funny. I would almost guarantee he has some backlash for his comments. 

I would like to talk about my last couple days of poker but want to make sure I come off correct. They were full of deep runs that ended up cut short by beats taken when I get the chips in ahead. Obviously this happens to everyone and it is just variance, but I can understand the frustrations poker players feel when it happens several times over a short period of time. 

Over the last year I have had several downswings, some lengthy, but they never last. It just takes work to keep the emotion out and not get frustrated. It was easy for me at first because as I grinded I was also very active in a chat group of poker players. A few of the players had temper and tilt trouble so as they took a bad beat and flew off the handle, it was easy for me to see all the negativity that went with their emotion and make the decision to not let myself be that emotional. 

I also have a few small mental tricks I use that I taught myself while playing pool for a living 1995-2005. If I find myself in a rough moment I think to myself how would I want to act if the ten most important people in my life were watching, then I act accordingly. Obviously they are not there so it takes will power, but these type of thoughts can definitely stop you from throwing a mouse or punching a monitor. Two things I have never done but examples of recent stories I have heard from other poker players. I do know when taking the last few beats I realized that I do not yet have emotional detachment, but am more just controlling any outbursts. I feel emotion and also get upset, but I choose not to post bad beats or talk about them much. Although there is that overwhelming feeling to want to share your bad beat with someone so another person can feel your pain and sympathize. But truly that is all nonsense and we will be better off if the beats don't bother us and we just move on.

Well, thats enough out of me for now, I think I will watch some television and relax, back to the grind tomorrow. Good luck everyone, thanks for reading, feel free to leave a comment.

Thursday

3pm start and ready to rock in with my _____ in , because going outside is not happening with all that snow on the ground. I am very happy that the electricity and internet stayed on though. I late registered for a few that started around 2pm and will play most of my normal schedule from 3pm on. I am going for a day full of great decisions and emotional detachment. I still have not taken any of the lessons I am hoping to take this month but I am trying to schedule some, I can't wait to improve. Well, the daily grind has started, updates later, GL ME.
Cashed in 8 out of 45 MTTs with a few deep runs but I came up short and loser on the day. I was able to catch a few of my mistakes today, I just hope to soon be catching them before I make them. I did manage to get in touch with a coach and will be scheduling some sessions soon. Now it is time to see what is in the DVR, until tomorrow, same bat time, same bat channel.

Wednesday

4pm start after sleeping in a little. I am going to play some good poker today and make good decisions. I a still snowed in due to the 20" we got in Tulsa, I am hoping to be able to get out soon to grab a few groceries and some necessities. I still do not have the exact date and times for my lessons this month but I am excited and ready to improve. I also realized with all the volume I played in January I got myself away from watching as many poker videos as I would like and plan on making an effort to watch more soon. Time to grind, updates later, GL ME.
Cashed in 5 out of 32 MTTs with a brutal FT bubble in the $75 40k on FTP. Overall it was a decent day where I feel I battled adversity fairly well while taking several beats going in ahead. I do believe that since I typed the last two sentences that I want to delete but will not, that the day has affected me some, but what I want to do is realize even though I think I am positive sometimes little bits of negative can come through, I want to embrace that, find the source, and work it out. Being positive is a choice and it simply takes some work, but overall it helps me a lot and allows me to have the drive and work ethic I do.
Now I am going to clean my whole apartment as punishment for not running better, lol, not really but I am going to do some cleaning. Usually the day after I get lost of things done like cleaning I feel good and a small bit of accomplishment, can't hurt, and the apt. needs clean. I have a labradoodle, Samantha, and it takes work keeping all the hair cleaned up. We still have lots of snow on the ground outside and I am in a wheelchair so leaving my apt. won't be happening anytime soon, so more grinding to come. As if it would be any different if 80 degrees and sunny, lol.

Tuesday, Oh my it's snowing, 20" so far.

2pm start and ready to play some poker and make some great decisions. I also plan on having as little emotion as possible whether winning a hand or losing it. I am excited about taking some poker lessons this month, I am ready to take another step in my game. Well, my break is over back to the tables, more later.
Cashed in 5 out of 46 MTTs with no deep runs or good results. I took several beats but kept my head high and kept plugging away. I was actually not the only one in the chat having a rough day but I was the only one not very emotional I think. I tried to express my thoughts to them and share why it is so important to not get emotional or let a few bad beats take the desire to play away and I believe it is helping them. I have been in the process of scheduling some lessons and can'y wait to get started, I'll keep ya posted, GL ME.